Date Weight (lb) BF% Protein (g) Carbs Fat Total Cal
7.23.14 110.5 15.7 117 131 28 1, 244 (+18)
7.16.14 109 15.0 117 131 26 1,226 (+58)
7.9.14 109 14.9 117 121 24 1,168 (+49)
7.2.14 110 15.6 117 111 23 1,119 (+49)
6.25.14 110.5 15.4 117 101 22 1,070 (+40)
6.18.14 110 16.1 117 91 22 1,030 (+43)
6.11.14 112.5 16.8 117 81 20 987 (+40)*
START 117 77 19 947
One of the most important things about this blog is I want to be 100% myself and absolutely transparent with you. If I'm not, then what's the point of this? How will I ever help anyone else who struggles with the same issues as me if I hold back any deeply rooted feelings? So here we go. Brace yourself for some Cait heart/mind/soul-spillage.
I am feeling bummed that my body fat % is up by a few decimals this week. I know that weight fluctuates and everything, but I was definitely stoked on the direction it was moving before. I won't let that get me down though! I'm going to keep moving forward with this reverse diet no matter what. I do know that last night (before I measured) I drank a LOT of water right before bed and was only asleep for 3-4 hours, which is not typical for me. I'm hoping that had something to do with it. Or maybe my metabolism isn't keeping up with the speed that I'm adding calories in. Either way, I will keep my eye on the prize--FOOD & MUSCLES!
Due to this slight fluctuation/increase I'm going to give my body some extra time to adjust by lowering my macro increases this week. I have decided to not add any carbs and just increase 2g of fat. I'm playing it safe but not stopping! I will never give up.
So… If you've ever read the about section of the blog, you will come to find I'm a very sensitive person especially when it comes to body image. I have some deep hurt in that area that stems back to being very overweight for the majority of my childhood. I'm thankful that I was so overweight because it has shaped me into a compassionate/sympathetic person, but I still struggle with negative thoughts about my body. So, whoever is reading this, your prayers would be so much appreciated. And if you ever need prayer about anything please, please post a comment or message me and I WILL pray for you. Ultimately, loving God and loving people is all that matters in life. I need to be reminded of the bigger picture sometimes, especially during weeks like this when I'm feeling down on myself for such trivial matters.
"What we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory He will reveal to us later." - Romans 8:18