Week 19: Mini Cut Feelz

10/15/2014

Meh.

MINI-CUT 1:
Date Weight (lb) BF% Protein (g) Carbs Fat Total Cal
10.15.14 112.5 15.5 120 140 29 1,300 (-0)
10.8.14 111.5 15.2 120 140 29 1,300 (-0)
10.1.14 113.5 15 120 140 29 1,300 (-0)
9.24.14 115 16.0 120 140 29 1,300 (-350)

REVERSE DIET 1:
Date Weight (lb) BF% Protein (g) Carbs Fat Total Cal
9.17.14 113 15.4 117 201 42 1,650 (+0)
9.10.14 111.5 16.2 117 201 42 1,650 (+58)
9.3.14 111 16.8 117 191 40 1,592 (+58)
8.27.14 111.5 16.4 117 181 38 1,534 (+58)
8.20.14 111.5 15.7 117 171 36 1,476 (+58)**
8.13.14 110 16.0 117 161 34 1,418 (+58)
8.6.14 110 15.7 117 151 32 1,360 (+58)
7.30.14 109.5 15.5 117 141 30 1,302 (+58)
7.23.14 110.5 15.7 117 131 28 1, 244 (+18)
7.16.14 109 15.0 117 131 26 1,226 (+58)
7.9.14 109 14.9 117 121 24 1,168 (+49)
7.2.14 110 15.6 117 111 23 1,119 (+49)
6.25.14 110.5 15.4 117 101 22 1,070 (+40)
6.18.14 110 16.1 117 91 22 1,030 (+43)
6.11.14 112.5 16.8 117 81 20 987 (+40)*
START 117 77 19 947

What the heck yo. I gained a pound this week. Whatevs. I've been feeling crazy bloated the past few days and I'm not sure why. I think this is going to be the last week of my "mini-cut." My purpose was to lose a few pounds and I did. 112.5 is exactly where I started the macro experiment, except I was about 17% body fat then. So I'm cool with it. I just hate this feeling of having reduced energy during my workouts and throughout the day. It especially sucks because my life has been about 100x more stressful than usual the past few weeks. I'm not trying to be negative, just gotta keep it real up in here and tell you like it is! ;)

I've also been thinking a lot… I need to chill out with the value I place in scale weight. Yes, it is a subjective standardized measurement. But that's all it is. Scale weight doesn't tell you your body fat%, water retention, and most importantly it does NOT indicate self-worth or how happy/sad you should feel during the day… it's lit-ch-rally just a stupid number that reflects one's mass x acceleration of gravity at that moment in time. I'm so sick of letting the scale weight of the day have an effect on my overall happiness. It sounds so dumb and ridiculous, but it's honestly hard for me to shake it. Just a part of my old eating disorder that still likes to hang out and mess with me.

So with this next reverse, I'm not going to flip my shiz every time I gain a pound. Hold me to it people, keep me accountable! :) I want to get stronger--mentally and physically. I'm super excited about some things coming up with the macro experiment so I will keep ya posted! <3

13 Comments

Megan

10/15/2014 05:20:09 pm

Hey Cait! I tried to follow your mini cut I did pretty good but I was tired all the time. I lost about 5 pounds but wasn't worth the tiredness. So back up to eating carbs carbs and carbs ha! I found I was staying bloated from dairy products. I gave up my almond milk and Greek yogurt just to see if that was my problem and yes it was. Thank you for keeping up your blog!!

Cait link

10/16/2014 10:27:33 am

Yeah girl. I think I might cut the cut early! I'm soooo over it. That's interesting that dairy products were making you bloated. I'm not sure what it is with me… maybe cortisol is high because of stress is my first guess, but who the heck knows! :) And thank YOU for reading and being so encouraging and awesome!! Much love!! <3 xo

Katie Ringley link

10/15/2014 06:56:24 pm

The first time I did a reverse, I made the mistake of getting on the scale. I do think that when you were doing this little experiment, it was pretty crucial but just think about the fact that you are now eating 120g carb vs 200g of carb per day and that is a difference in like 2lbs. ALL ABOARD THE CARB TRAIN!! I had to throw my scale out (literally haven't weighed once on my metab rehab journey). I even went on this shopping trip where I bought all mediums and bigger jeans because I was determined to do it. That was a little premature haha! Okay I'll shut up but just know that I know it's so so hard with the scale but YOU CAN DOIT!

10/16/2014 10:32:46 am

COULD NOT AGREE MORE.

I was thinking that same thing -- high cortisol due to stress could be causing bloating! I AM JUMPING BACK ON THE CARB TRAIN! Save a seat for me and my bloated self! lol! I'm definitely interested in not weighing myself, at least not as frequently. I am going to consider it, for sure. Thanks so much for all your encouragement and support throughout this whole process. Very thankful and blessed that you are my friend <3!

10/15/2014 06:58:22 pm

Oh, and I wouldn't doubt for one second if when you started reversing again, you lost weight. You've got so much going on that it's creating this cortisol water retention most likely because you were eating so high and then have cut so much. Just a thought :)

Elizabeth Dodds

10/16/2014 04:03:58 am

I agree with Katie - it's probably just water retention. This happens to me on days I eat fewer calories or if I'm fairly stressed out. I've been ultra stressed lately, so I'm feeling very similarly to you, and when I stepped on the scale, it was .5 pounds higher than usual, but my water percentage was also WAY higher than normal too. Also, it could be from artificial sweeteners too (I use that all the time, so I'm not really dissing them), but I do know that if I have too much too often, I bloat a little. I also found out I bloat from tofu which I really love, so I just try to only eat it every other week. Anyway, I think you still look LOVELY and you'll be fine overall :)

10/16/2014 10:37:57 am

Thanks so much for sharing that observations Elizabeth! That makes me feel so much better!! :) You are such a sweet heart, thank you for the kind words and encouragement, it means so much to me. <3

Amy Todd

10/17/2014 12:55:49 am

Hiya. Just wondering how do you measure your body fat %? And I completely agree with ignoring the scale. Progress pictures give you a far better idea of how you're getting on. I love reading your blog, you've given me some great ideas and help! So thank you!

10/21/2014 09:01:47 am

Hi Amy!! :) I use an omron handheld BF% analyzer. I know it's not super accurate, but any error should be more systematic than random because I use it consistently (first thing in the morning every wednesday).

I LOVE everyone's encouragement about how the scale sucks. Thank you so much. It's finally actually clicking for me that it's the TRUTH. <3

Rikki

10/18/2014 01:11:57 am

I just read your entire blog from start to finish and just wanted to say thank you for sharing. I have never had an eating disorder, but have always been "fluffier" than all my friends(34% bf) and have never liked my body. I won't bore you with my long story but will just tell you that I am starting to count my macros. I have almost completed week one and I'm excited to see where this takes me.

10/21/2014 09:08:06 am

Oh may gashhhh! Thank you SO much for reading my entire blog! That blows me away and makes me so happy :D! <3

I'm so excited for you!! Keep me updated with your progress and let me know if you ever have any questions or anything! I am here for ya!!

<3,
Cait

Clayton link

10/28/2014 04:51:53 am

The scale is a great guide. But you've also gotta go with body measurements and the mirror. Most importantly, you've gotta believe in what your doing. A lb fluctuation one week (especially on a reverse diet) isn't the end of the world. If you're happy with the direction you are moving, then keep moving! ;) Based on your updates, it looks like you are already doing so much better than most.

10/30/2014 09:04:23 am

Thanks Clayton! You rock. That is so true! Thanks for the encouragement, it means so much!

Week 19: Mini Cut Feelz

Leave a Reply.

Archives

Categories