Hey guys! This week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week, so I just wanted to share a little bit about my story and some recent thoughts on the subject. In the photo on the left, I had just moved to Nashville and had lost about 20 pounds in one months time by severely restricting calories (barely eating anything). Although I loved how I looked on the outside, I knew I was really messed up inside, but didn't want to fully admit it to myself because I LOVED being super skinny. It was a legitimate addiction. It felt so good to step on the scale and see it say "100," something similar to what I believe getting high might feel like. Dopamine rush. Of course I blame myself for letting it get that far, but I do feel like there is pressure as a woman to fit a certain "beautiful" mold created by our culture. Did you know that 81% of 10 year old girls are afraid of being fat? That is insane. What's more insane is the fact that eating disorders have the highest mortality rate of any mental illness. Let that sink in for a second.
At some point you have to ask yourself, who am I? What makes me... ME? Be honest and don't give yourself a sunday school answer. Go deep. Get a journal and writing these things down.
I don't care who is reading this, I have some truth for you.
You are more than a body and a face.
You are more than a shell.
You are more than a number.
You are a beautiful, unique person specifically formed by God, who also made the universe BY THE WAY. This is not a bunch of fluffy words I'm writing to cheer you up. This is the truth and you need to hear it.
It took a lot of time and prayer for me to finally transition out of the girl in the picture on the left. By no means am I perfect or completely "normal" (but what is normal anyways...?) in all my thoughts. But one day I decided to take some steps... and then started running toward the truth, and I will not look back.
If you or someone you know has an eating disorder, don't ignore it. Don't lie to yourself. And if you just need a friend to talk to, I am always here. I know I don't know who is reading this, but my purpose of the macro experiment is to help people. I am so passionate about sharing God's love in this way so do not hesitate to email me: themacroexperimentcait@gmail.com. Love you guys.
- C
GREAT RESOURCES:
Online ED Screening Test
National Eating Disorder Association Website
Information and Referral Helpline
At some point you have to ask yourself, who am I? What makes me... ME? Be honest and don't give yourself a sunday school answer. Go deep. Get a journal and writing these things down.
I don't care who is reading this, I have some truth for you.
You are more than a body and a face.
You are more than a shell.
You are more than a number.
You are a beautiful, unique person specifically formed by God, who also made the universe BY THE WAY. This is not a bunch of fluffy words I'm writing to cheer you up. This is the truth and you need to hear it.
It took a lot of time and prayer for me to finally transition out of the girl in the picture on the left. By no means am I perfect or completely "normal" (but what is normal anyways...?) in all my thoughts. But one day I decided to take some steps... and then started running toward the truth, and I will not look back.
If you or someone you know has an eating disorder, don't ignore it. Don't lie to yourself. And if you just need a friend to talk to, I am always here. I know I don't know who is reading this, but my purpose of the macro experiment is to help people. I am so passionate about sharing God's love in this way so do not hesitate to email me: themacroexperimentcait@gmail.com. Love you guys.
- C
GREAT RESOURCES:
Online ED Screening Test
National Eating Disorder Association Website
Information and Referral Helpline
"But those who trust in The Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not be faint."
-- Isaiah 40:31
They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not be faint."
-- Isaiah 40:31
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